Let’s start at the beginning…
A knobby-kneed, blonde hair and blue-eyed girl that generally loved life – I’m the one in the middle of my sister and brother.
I was an active child who loved to explore the outdoors with my siblings and roam the neighborhood with my friends. I clearly remember my dad paying us not to watch TV. It started at $1 a day until he started going broke paying each of us $7 a week. He dropped it to $0.25 and it still worked.
I was always the rounder of the two sisters…held onto my baby fat in the face. It amazes me how young this awareness starts.
This rounder outlook didn’t go away when I shot up 5-6 inches between 8th grade and high school and didn’t gain a pound. In my mind, I believed I was unattractive and weighed too much. Being a girl and over 6 feet tall added to the self-consciousness.
High School Years
My unhealthy relationship with food began. Food became a way to deal with my anxiety… a way to control.
To give you a little perceptive…at over 6 feet tall, I weighed around 155 lb. (maybe less) and I have a sturdy set of bones.
THIN, but I didn’t think I was. A friend and I obsessed about what we ate, worked out a lot and being skinny was always something at the forefront of my mind.
Don’t you wish that you could go back and infuse positive messages of beauty and grace to your younger self.
Dating and Newly Married
This part of the story is a little funny. I learned that perhaps it’s better to go on birth control before you go to your first wedding dress fitting. Sometime between my two of my fittings I started on birth control to get ready for married life. Needless to say the dress no longer fit because of more voluptuous body. I remember the seamstress lecturing me about birth control, something about it tricking my body into thinking it was pregnant and on and on she went. I think she was frustrated that she had to take the dress back out.
Here entered my unhealthy relationship with food as an adult or maybe it never went away. The pounds on the scale slowly crept up. There were side effects of eating the same amount of food that my husband did. He could think about losing weight and the pounds would fall off.
The only time in my life that weight came off beautifully was when we moved to South Africa. I lost about 40 lbs in the 1st 4 months! I exercised 6 times a week, the food we ate wasn’t processed, and we only ate out once a week.
Easy there, not so easy here.
My Life Now
I turned 33 on Jan. 1st. 33! I can’t believe it. I feel young. Well, until I look at a newly married couple and think to myself, “aren’t they like 16?”
Over the past year and a half I’ve gotten on track with exercising. I completed Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred in October 2010. I stepped it up a notch to P90X in the spring. In between these programs I did various workout DVDs on a pretty consistent basis.
Starting 10 weeks ago, I joined a Facebook page of friends and we’ve been working out 5 days a week. We share our scores, encourage and push each other. (this is a post in itself… so I’ll come back to it in a future A Healthier Story post)
It’s Not Enough
I remember watching the put-the-weight-back-on challenge on the Biggest Loser Season with Olivia and Hannah. I couldn’t believe the strain the added weight put on their bodies. My body is toting around at least 70 extra pounds each and every day.
I want to be stronger, healthier, more agile, and live with energy each day. The exercises alone aren’t cutting it and the added weight is holding me.
I’m done with it!
Here’s how the concept of a Healthier Story came to be…
I had just finished Donald Miller’s book A Million Miles in a Thousand Years: What I Learned While Editing My Life. I LOVED it. Now this book has nothing specifically to do with being healthier or with exercise, but about truly living life and telling a story that’s worth being told.
Here’s the truth about telling stories with your life. It’s going to sound like a great idea, and you are going to get excited about it and then when it comes time to do the work, you’re not going to want to do it. It’s like that with writing books, and it’s like that with life. People love to have lived a great story, but few people like the work it takes to make it happen. But joy costs pain. ::Donald Miller::
The Eating Plan
I’m beginning to look more closely at what I’m taking into my body and evaluating what needs to change. I’m exploring the bests ways to nourish my body and searching for new recipes that use clean foods.
No more food by default…it’s time to get intentional. Each time I open my mouth to eat I need to ask myself if it supports my training goals and a healthy lifestyle… each bite, each ingredient, each meal.
I want a healthy relationship with food.
Join me in this journey as we discover healthier ways to nourish our bodies, increase our strength and learn how to truly live.
Let’s be intentional about writing a healthier story this year…
I’m joining with 5 other bloggers to bring you our heartfelt thoughts about the potential we see in this new year. We’re sharing about writing journals, weight loss, meal planning, simplifying and more.
Here are the bloggers joining me…